Praise God

Praise God, from whom all blessings flow,
Praise Him, all creatures here below,
Praise Him, above ye heav'nly host,
Praise Father, Son and Holy Ghost
Amen

This came into my head tonight as I was in the shower, and not only reminds me of Grandma, but is also just true!  Today we both celebrate and mourn our loss of Grandma, on what would have been her 81st birthday.    We all miss her so much, and of course Grandpa especially.  I'm learning grief comes in waves, and for no apparent reason.  Something little reminds me of her, and that's all it takes!  I miss watching her hands as she arranges the dice while we play games, always with clear polish on.  I miss her various delicious cookies, especially chocolate chip and the delicate wedding cookies she'd make because she knew I loved them.  I miss hearing her say "you little dickens!" and "you 'ol cutie" with her face down at eye level with Asher and Hannah's little faces.  It's a million little things I didn't really give much attention to, until now, when they are gone.  I wish Asher had the chance to play the Disney version of Yahtzee with her that he likes so much.  I can just hear her saying how proud she is of him!
There's nothing anyone can really do, except keep plugging on, keeping her memory alive in our daily lives.  Such an amazing Grandma, and our hearts ache to see her again.  There's comfort in knowing she's safe, happy and healed, and that we truly will see her again one day.  We love you Grandma, and treasure our memories with you.

Today we met Grandpa, Dad, and Rhonda in Palm Coast for lunch!  It was cool to have 4 generations at the same table.  We thoroughly confused Asher trying to explain that Papa is Grandpa's Daddy, and Grandpa is Mommy's Daddy- haha.

Also of note was my conversation with Asher tonight at bedtime.  We were reading the Noah and the Ark book that Grama and Papa W. gave Asher for love day, and when I was done I said "Asher do you know how much God loves you?"  He paused and then asked "Is God in my heart?"  I told him if he wanted God to be in his heart, he would be.  He replied "But I don't want him to be in my body."  So cute!  I told him He wouldn't be in his body per say, but will love Asher forever, and wants to be his friend forever.  Then during his story time (we tell him a story as his last bedtime step) he wanted Noah and the Ark again, so at the end I said "what did God put in the sky to show he wouldn't flood the earth again?"  He wouldn't answer so I said "you know, with all the colors?"  He said "but there's not black, or gray...or brown."  Yes Mr. Smarty Pants!  :)